MUMS THE WORD
I would truly love to write a blog and tell you about our day but I can’t as I signed a confidentiality agreement. At least Taylor told me I signed one. I wasn’t actually paying attention, I signed what I thought was a standard release form. The kind I have handed to many people myself, that simply states one has the rights to use a person’s image, footage or whatever is being recorded. But when I think about it I have never been on a show where they asked me to sign one.
And I was told I could not post any photos and to stop taking them before my camera was taken from me. This has never been told to me on a set or show either, usually everyone is snapping away and the cast or hosts are happy to pose with you.
Now I have never been in a pilot as a guest; but in my TV days I did produce them and create them and I used to go in on punch up nights and work with other shows, and I would be there on tape night and I don’t ever remember gag orders being a part of the program.
So based on that, I’m going to go with Taylor’s assessment of the document. And my guess is she read more of it than I did, as I was busy taking photos I didn’t know I couldn’t post. When I was told I couldn’t put any photos of the set or cast on my blog I asked if I could use one of the make-up guy. He was very sweet and just got off the road with Jennifer Hudson. The answer was no. I could use Taylor alone but no make-up guy. I can’t mention his name. I wanted to put up his website. Can’t.
What can I tell you?
Taylor and I flew out here on Wednesday to shoot a pilot for a new talk show. I didn’t want to say anything after Dr. Phil cancelled as writing blogs explaining why things in TV and film don’t pan out is hard to do as it seldom makes sense to even those involved. So I decided to keep my mouth shut until we were on the set. This is not easy for me to do. And I wasn’t planning on then being told I was obliged to keep my mouth shut after I got there. I’m not quite sure why it’s all so hush- hush. To be honest, none of it seems like that big a deal. Its not like Jimmy Hoffa was a guest and they want to keep it under wraps until it airs.
The only really good thing about it is it’s not gong to air. This is something I was not aware of when we came out here. I knew it wouldn’t air if it didn’t get picked up. But I figured it would get picked up and then it would air. I would not have done it had I actually known that this was just a presentation pilot and would never be seen.
I still think it will get picked up, but this show will not be used.
That turns out to be a huge relief as this entire day is in the desktop folder of things I wish I had never gotten involved in.
BUT I CAN’T TELL YOU WHY.
I can say this, in the last two and a half months of media this was the worst experience by far. Nothing even comes close…Taylor liked it for one reason, but I can’t tell you that either. Yet at one point she asked if we could walk off the set.
I told her no we were professional and whatever we were feeling the show must go on.
Hind site being 20/20 I’m not sure why I picked the high road in that moment, as my impulse was the same as hers. But I do believe that we signed on – we were there – we would do our best. I never walk away, it looks bad, one doesn’t’ want to look bad even if one sees bad coming towards you from the other direction.
So we went on…
And I know this is like saying I have a secret and I can’t tell you. It’s all a giant tease and now I’m going to tell the story. But I’m not. I wish I could. One day I will write the blog I want to write now.
Either the show will get picked up and then I can write it. Or the show will not get put on the schedule and then I can write about it. I just don’t know when that will be.
I learned many things today, the main one being it’s impossible to be interesting, amusing or insightful if you are not allowed to write the truth. And it’s virtually impossible to write if you are not allowed to say anything.
I’m not even sure how I was able to manipulate this into 700 words, but I’m starting to bore myself, so heaven only knows what I ‘m doing to you.
If you think this is …Oh I….forgot….mums the word.